twilightsong wrote:I "see" a year in my mind -- it has a definite shape: downward over Jan thru April, and then curving upward across May and June, the back upward thru July to September, and the a gradual slant across the Fall and early Winter months.
I have no idea or theory why this is.
Anybody else have this?
Also, like many people, I have strong emotional/mental associations that result from experiencing certain smells, mostly in connection past events. The entire first book of Proust's "A la recherche du temps perdu" deals with this subject
What similarities and differences are there when its spread left to right as distinct from when it it is going more directly ahead?
Were there any years or periods of weeks and months when different curve-characteristics occurred?
How would a year FEEL differently if, just for three minutes, you reverse the curve so its up to fall and down toward summer?
How would it feel if you contemplate the time toward your next goal as sloping downward?
And how, if sloping upward?
And a general thought to extend what I've said to Doug and to honour my promise to Dave:
FIRST ... Dave and others ... I'm using the 'ramble' style. Earlier, I was too deep into a feverish trance .... you know where thoughts are apparenlty random though in reality deeply connects but you're the last one to know ... until you Wake Up - but NOT YET, it always the way, down in the cold and flu which can be comfortably uncomfortable ... Like Sleeping ... Half Asleep and sometimes, you almost wake up but Not yet, because your Dreaming and it's important so you don't want to wake yet ....
But I'm beginning to come part of the way out ... now only half confused and half dreaming ... just enough to hang onto those feelings which do make better sense when rambling, because Dave, you make full sense which applies in So many Ways, as synaesthesia is, as I have said, a place where we experience tips of iceburgs for what they are ... whilst knowing the icebergs themselves will always be out of the grasp, sight or earshot of any one sense.
We have just completed a brief exploration of our senses as they relate to our experience of time, space and meaning. That was the Trailer
Here is the Film ... and it will start just as we expect, as we Plunge Now into the action, with a Deeep voice-over, to wash over you in dark and glowing movements and sensations:
"IN a World ....
Where Years are what we Make them ...
a World ....
Where What we make may Not Only be of Years ...
But also of our Dreams, our Hopes, our Ambitions
A World ...
Where we transform the Iron of our Intent into Steel ...
Think of projects which are important to you.
Think of the period between that project's inception and completion. Think of it as the notes on your paper, or the chart on on your wall, as you walk toward that chart and either point at that spot on the wall or walk boldy THROUGH the chart, stp by setp, in your imagination, through the stages of the project, maybe talking yourself through it as you do so, and maybe that chart is no longer on the wall, but half folded, in your hand, like a map ...
My first question to you is: How do you characterize your project? What are it's qualities? Colours? Gradients? Textures? Sounds? Sensations? Some of all of these qualities may apply to your way.
People ARE different, and Qualities of Year, and Qualities of Project affect slope characteristics differently for different people.
Musical pitch often associates physical height and light with notes of short wavelength/rapid frequency, and physical lowness and darkness with notes of long wavelength/slow frequency
Metaphor of height is what sometimes constitutes part of people's problems when 'trying' to sing notes of short wavelength. Sometimes darkening the feel of a note cloaks it in some of the qualities of 'low'ness and makes it easier to achieve.
Similarly with goals ... changing quality of appearance can change perception of achievability.
NOT to be confused with the weightlifter's training method where the trainer secretly puts a label with a lower figure on weights which will break the athlete's personal best. That is a simple fooling of expectation. It is a con, and though effective sometimes, in the long term unecological.
SOME parts of your future are rosy, and some aren't. DAVE ... notice part of your future which is rosy and beam Into, Focus on [or energetically DEfocus on] the qualities of rosiness .. where on the red/blue spectrum it it? is it plain sensum or variegated? has it visible surface qualities, like a sense of moistness or dryness? if so, how much and make special effort to notice the difference between the visual qualities of moistness and dryness, and your 'internal' memory based sense of moistness and dryness.
Synaesthesia is about blending, therefore this extended Synaesthesia Exercise goes to the root, and works directly on our capacity to blend, shift, and transform ... between colours, senses, concepts, values. I am shaking up our sensory bases by grabbing higher order handles, moving them, then coming back down to notice how the senses and combinations are shifting.
Why, there are times when our ability to shift and blend between seemingly separate things means that we can go somewhere else entirely, and it will make, perhaps, even more sense according to your specific interests ..... for instance, take chocolate cake ..........
CHOCOLATE CAKE ... see it now .... Fresh chocolate cake and Stale chocolate Cake ... NOTICE the difference in moistness and dryness now. The Stale chocolate cake HAS to be older than the Fresh chocolate cake. Add Nearly Fresh chocolate cake, and Nearly but not quite Stale chocolate cake. You've got Four slices of chocolate cake. Have another .. which is half way between Fresh and Stale. Put them in order in front of you.
How or how far apart you put them is up to you.
How do YOU feel when the Cake is Fresh ... as you're looking at it NOW, how do you feel?
HOW DO YOU FEEL WHEN A PROJECT IS FRESH? Maybe a song you are working on?
How does your sense of the project LOOK when it is fresh, as distinct from when it's got a bit stale?
Chocolate cake is not your project, but if when it were stale, it began to travel backwards in time, until sooner than you'd believe possible, it is as if it is but ONE hour out of the oven, It would be attractive.
A very light brushing of oil does the same thing .... especially in a photographer's studio under the hot lights. give it 'just' that 'gleam' .. it is not a shiny cake .. it is just Obviously a Moist cake.
Similarly with projects, except that with projects, It and US are the same thing. We project our workload on the combination of equipment and materials. 90% or our workload is our attitude.
But ... we were talking about your ROSY FUTURE, weren't we? ... what happens when we Spread the sense of Rosiness a little .. ONLY a little to the left and the right of the naturally rosy bit? ONLY a little above and below it, too.
What happens if we accidentally splash a bit of that ROSiness over our left or right shoulder, painting the past, because let's face it, in a Janus Way, sunrise and sunset are about the same Sun as much as the Morning Star and the Evening Star are about Venus.
What if we SEE our music, Dave, and there are rosy sections and we move our sense of them slightly BLUER ... would we wonder about playing them differently?
We're not saying a 20 stone weight is only 19 stone, and then expecting you to lift it. YOU made the future look that way to begin with, and I'm only asking you to really change the colours a bit and then to change them back and notice what really happens. Then for yuo to only change it the way you really want and like.
You ever been with Gloomy People? They paint the world the colours of Gloom?
Obviously, the world was not that way until they painted it thus ... let's hope they don't get you to forget that the world had ever been different, cos that's what they need to do in order to really sell you the idea.
What they've done is to have compellingly offered you a set of colours through which to see the world.
When you realise this, you know you can put the colours back the way they were .. if you can remember.
Some band members and 'project partners' have been known to do this kind of stuff.
Heck .. WE do it to ourselves! Obviously, we take different positions at different stages of a project ... there are times we're being positive, threr are times we're being negative, and there are times when we're just plain confused
... our sense of a ROSY Future at the BEginning of a project, is something which sometimes varies as we look at the future from different stages WITHIN the project? That's something we can't see on that chart, though we know it as we walk through or when we relive past projects in order to make important learnings.
How are we distinguishing between when we are seeing the Rosy future of the life of the composer? The Rosy future of the song as we are increasingly confident what we will complete it to a good standard? And the Rosy THEMES WITHIN the song?
What about when a DARK song has a BRIGHT Future.
What happens when we consciously attend to noticing these distinctions, and make the same effort to AVOID Unwanted Crosstalk as we do when setting up Microphones? Or choosing Multitrack A/D converters?
This is something to understand through doing ... the instructions of this exercise are clear, clear enough to occasionally get mistaken for 'explanation' or 'argument' ... believe me, they explain nothing, they just take you on a journey, and you simply and comfortably change. There are things being pointed 'at', but there are no points being made ...
Like when you are on a walk with a tour guide. If you feel your feed firmly on the ground and walk through slowly enough to smell the flowers and to feel their petals, all you'll know is that you've been somewhere, and what you'll wake with you will be new choices about where to return to or where to revisit differently.
SEEING COLOURS is one part of synaesthesia.
ORGANIZING into different conscious streams the different 'Perspectives of perception' .. be they visual, auditory, kinaesthetic, olfactory or gustatory, are essential steps not only in bringing to full sense the components of the sensory combinations in which we live in our external 'perceiving' and our internal 'conceptualisation', but also in giving us more points of effective Contact. In giving us more levers and handles with which to mould the fabric of reality to our Will.
We Think NOW of our future and it is 'just' the future.
We SEE, like Doug, a sense of shape .. a metaphor of space and solidity with some of the laws of time/space and voila .... Time has Height, and movement through Time is a Journey along Gradient. We all know what it is like to go on a long walk.
Some of us like when we are climbing to see stuff from high places.
Some of us like when we are going into deep valleys, even potholing.
All of us can Reach with your inner hand NOW and Touch your time line ... your personal timeline .. whether you mainly see it rolling out straight in front of you, like you're riding along it, or whether you see lit like it's drawn left to right in front of you, so you can trace it with your finger, or whether you DO BOTH AS IS APPROPRIATE ... flicking between each, as and when best or most fun. Either way, you are touching it.
YANK IT .. PULL IT a bit .... what if you push or pull a LOW time slightly HIGHER, then bring it back to where it was. What if you do the same now with thoughts of a high old time you might have at some point? What's the difference? When is that a difference You Want to Keep? and when is that a difference you want to Put Back As You Found It? Or not, now?
Some people have dips, and they see the future in front of them ... up it goes, then it DIPS TOO FAR so it's out of sight and all they see is the final 2/3rds of the climb to the next peak. IF they pull that sag up Just enough, then the future will still be a mystery, but it will feel different as it is approached. Pull some of your sags up and notice the difference. If you've got no sags and dips, then go ahead and make some ... press some of the ground in the mid distance low enough so, as a valley, it disappears ONLY long enough for you to get a sense of the Feeling, and Put It Back the way you found it. That's important ... It's like re-setting your prefs. You can always choose later, whether to do it permanently. My purpose is only that you will, through fully exploring and identifying how you manage your synaesthesias, gain previously unimagined control over your appreciation and projects, rather than messing up familiar defaults by screwing with the controls willy-nilly.
Some people do this 'Sagging' with parts of projects they worry they are about to get lost in. Other people do this with parts of projects in which they explicitly and specifically wish to get lost. Others do it for entirely different reasons. For example ...they may have a perfectly visible gradient up to ... oh ... say the completion of initial tracking of main riffs, the end of the beginning.
START OF THE PROJECT, the beginning of the beginning ....... The Future was ROSY in the initial heat of those main riffs .... so the future was also well illuminates AND with a great colour! EVERYTHING working well and together.
THEN .......................... ??? some parts of a project are like groping in the dark DARK ... in our language and our experience, we have moved into metaphor of SIGHT to describe quality of a project we might be doing in a well lit room. Things might be looking black, but then again, it is always darkest before dawn and soon there'll be the light at the end of the tunnel?? .......... ??? Alternatively some parts are like exploring the Milky way and firmament of multi colours stars, glittering ... Scintillating, but cannot be seen in the daylight. We need them to be in the dark, or a least into the shade of a valley, away from direct sunlight.??? ....... ??? and other variations??? ......................
FIVE DAYS BEFORE PUBLICATION OR POSTING ON THIS FORUM ...... the future May or May not be as rosy, but sure as heck, it is not dipping out of sight ..... you can even 'see' the markers .. they even transform into readable Lists "get required loudness and check for unacceptable clipping, render to mp3, check mp3 against playing masterbus output, adjust to balance mp3 shortfalls, upload to Bandcamp, do photo of self and photoshop it, compose modest but not too apologetic text for the post, and POST"
I BET that for different people posting their music, there are very different 'Slopes' and 'Colours' for your sense of Future. For SOME, this might be the point where the sense of Future DIPS into a valley ... out of sight .. because it acknowledges the innate unpredictability of others' responses. For Others, this might be a peak, because, whilst there is the ravine of other's potential responses, this bit of time is a 'High Point' ... because one is on the Summit of Achievement.
Dave, I have borne in mind COLOURS, because you specified those modalities of the sense of sight. Hear>See. You Know that by adjusting sound, you can influence what you see. My post has been working more with See/Feel, because that that is my primary sympathetic direction, and I am therefore more articulate in those terms. The principles of transformation and control are the same.
Cold, flu and feverish trances are especially effective naturalistic ways of reducing and in some cases removing the boundaries between modes of experience. So is alcohol. LSD too. Their beauty is that they merely lift the veil from what we used to do all the time as little children, and point the way to what we may recapture of our original infant potential, as we organize our adult experience to recomaim what we were trained to forget.
When you wake up NOW from such trances, or comeback from memories of when you were in them, some will remain available, and the rest will emerge as it will, either when you revisit, or in other ways feel the need to check again this post from time to times of greater leisure. It is well worth the effort to put right Huxley's error of 1954, when, with his work 'the Doors of Perception', he fathered a generation of explorers but gave them, as legacy, the working metaphor that perception had walls in the first place. He had caught glimpses of the Post-Einstein world, but, viewing it with the eyes of Newton, was as the caterpillar describes the butterfly.
That's the end of the Tour, I hope you've enjoyed it.
Tea is available in the tent on your left. Mind the dip in the grass.
The exit is on your right. To take the tour again you will always find something new that you want.